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10:52
I talked with Karise and Krystal last night for 100 minutes. I might actually use all my off peak hours on my cell phone. Krystal is a bit freaked about Egils this up coming weekend. She doesn't like being out doors. She also has some fun memories of camping with her hippy parents. Let's just say, "Some bad scenes".Ok, so last night about 23:30 I get a call from Shelly. She is not doing well. The break up with Frank was only 2 months ago. 2 months for a 5 year relationship is NOTHING. We talked for an hour and she is worried about never getting married, never having kids. She comes from a mormon family, is the youngest and is the only single one with no kids. Plus she moved out her to be with Frank, she has no family here. Plus her dog is going psycho on her. The dog is way totally shy, and chews things when Shelly is not home.
So at 00:30 this morning I get off the phone and get back on line. I was planning on talking for a little bit, but my friend Cherry and I started talking and I'm not sure if I got off line at 03:00 this morning, or 04:00. I'll find out. But it was fun talking with her, especially as we had talked last week and had a huge miss in communication. I'm really enjoying the people I'm meeting on line. It's getting close to addiction, but if I can get myself off to bed at a decent hour each night it will be ok.
So I got up this morning, took a shower, headed to work and got here at 08:30 and guess what, I'm doing a build again, Mango number 20, Goddess I hope that this smokes, and that we can ship this puppy.
The rest of the week is way full too, now if I can get Friday off, I will take it and run down a day early. Wednesday is my swing dance class. Thursday is getting together with Thor, Friday is Egils, Tonight is chess with Ivan. I need to call him.
15:45
Ok, I'm hoping to be out of here in 45 minutes, to go play chess. Mango version 20 has smoked and is now in regression testing. The woman that I met at the conference this weekend (the one I met at Egils 8 years ago) sent me e-mail Monday and I just got back to it today. She's an interesting person, very interesting. I kind of like her, but I'm not expecting it to ever go anywhere. There are some things that she wants and needs that I'm not capable of giving at this point in my life, like that whole monogamy thing. Hell, I don't know what kind of things she does like now that I think about it. She's been with out a boyfriend for about a year and a half, and I don't think I'm going to be it.I think I'm still pretty stuck on Freya. Which sucks because I don't expect the flakiness to go away anytime soon. Or the accusatory method of inquiring into my character. I mean, try asking me, "What were you doing in 1943" (still had another 23 years to be born) as opposed to telling me, "You killed people in german prison camps!" For some reason, I tend to not react well to that kind of "questioning". Ok so the actual phase was something like, "you only want me for my body". To which the only proper answer is, "Yes, Yes I do, that is the only reason I'm here is because of your body", because once you start defending yourself, it's all over. Freya is 21, Jody was 45 when she was doing the exact same thing. I don't think I want to deal with that trait for the next 50 years of my life.
God, and I still sit here thinking, "but maybe she'll change". I seem to be in a conflicting space where I'm a) desperate, and b) content to see what happens.
22:48
Just got back from Mike and Ivan's place. I got over there at 17:30 and then waited. Then at 18:50 I called to leave a message saying I was going home, and they had just changed the message at 18:40 to say that they were sorry and that they were going to be at the Shari's and could I come out? Went there, we talked for a bit and then headed back to their place, they wanted to see the season finale of Buffy (which wasn't on). So I stopped at Costco and got a tent for $100 and some chairs and renewed my membership and a pair of dockers and 2 cases of altoids. Total cost, just over 200 bucks - not bad considering the renewal was $40.On my way to Mike and Ivan's guess who I get a phone call from. Freya. She had called Mike and Ivan and heard the message for me and was wondering what I was up to. We talked briefly and hung up. Most neutral conversation we have ever had I think. I got to Mike and Ivan's, finished up my Cobb salad from Shari's and then Ivan and I played two games of chess. The first one I kicked his ass on, the second one I had to fight for. He was playing with a handicap, he watches TV the way I do, hypnotically. Then I came home. My goal tonight is going to be getting into bed by midnight.