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Reworking my page, oh once again.I kicked back with Joe last night and played starcraft till 3am this morning. Had a ball. I haven't played starcraft since the last time Joe and I got together, and I had forgotten how much fun it was. I've been playing Total Annihilation for the last 4 - 5 months and enjoying greatly. Pretty soon, I need to get ready to go see the offspring. But right now I'm re-vamping the layout of the page.
Freya has not written back, this is unlike her. In the past, she has always needed to get the last word in. So I'm just figuring that she's busy.
Ok, the name of the page, SNAG in Denial, I have spent most of my life being the classic "Sensitive New Age Guy". I finally got tired of dealing with women who wanted me as a friend because I "understood them", but had no interest in me for anything else than a dumping ground for their troubles with men who treated them poorly. So about 7 years ago I said "screw this", and I now have a whole lot less patience for bullshit and troubles. The thing is that I still care about women, and still enjoy their company. They are not, and never have been "holes to be banged".
Hmmm, writers block, guess that means that I don't have my thoughts ironed out yet on the whole thing. I'll put some more thought to it and try to figure out what I'm trying to say. It could just mean that I'm trying to say, "I'm messed up, I know it, but I'm enjoying life the way it is, so why fix it."
I just hate it when something like Freya comes along and demonstrates that I still can get hurt. I sometimes am still too sensitive. If I had just taken her to bed and forgot her, I wouldn't be having these problems. Of course I'd be a completely different person in that case. I can honestly say that I have never INTENTIONALLY had a one night stand. Generally when I go to bed with someone, I want to do it again. The chase has never thrilled me. The ballet of sex fascinates me and I like to practice the art as often as possible. I like taking my partner up to the heights of arousal, and then seeing how long I can keep her there. Ended up getting dubbed with the nickname "Kite man" because of that. But the thing is that the first time I'm with some one, it can be anywhere from "Ok" to "Oh, My, God". But the 4th or 5th time is, in my opinion, when it really gets good. That's when I know their body pretty well and know what they do and do not like.
ok, so much for writers block, I really have to go.